dead again.

what was
your first
name?
i remember
your last.
and your
blue eyes
the
whites
turning
yellow;
dark
purple
half moons
setting
below.
i remember
your labs:
potassium
shooting
up like
a spike.
coags
kidney and
liver functions-
none of it
good.
heart
fumbling
its rhythm.
later on
that night
long after
i'd said
goodbye,
the monitor
slowed to
forty
then
thirty
then
nothing.
i knew it
would.
code didn't
last long.
probably
took longer
to hoist you
back to
bed.
dammit.
dead.
again.
of all the
things i
remember
i wish
i knew
your first
name.
and
how
i wish
i could
forget
the rest.